My teacher was commenting on my somewhat quavery clarinet tone and I told her I had accidentally drunk too much coffee that morning.
Her reply was, “Coffee!? Why on earth would you drink coffee, you’re already highly strung?”
She went on to mention she drinks tea if she needs caffeine, but admitted that tea and coffee had different effects.
Anyway, she’s right, I am already highly strung. Why am I drinking something that makes me even more shaky?
Thinking back, I just thought coffee was cool and started drinking it as soon as my parents would let me partake. All the adults I knew drank it, so I figured I should be too.
Lately, I’ve been thinking along similar lines about alcohol.
I know for some people, alcohol makes them more outgoing, but for me, it makes me even less likely to engage with other humans, especially to talk with them.
Why have I been drinking all these years?
It’s the same. It sounded cool, I’d been reading about it. As soon as I was able, I taught myself to get used to the flavor. In the end, however, I really can’t think of much about drinking that takes my life in a better direction or gives me a good effect.
It is time to make some different choices.